Bring back the Red Tent!

It is often easier to find male camaraderie most definitely in your own community, and truthfully around the world. I have been conducting some informal research for most of my life growing up with a father staying at home and two older brothers. I did not know any difference between femininity and masculinity. It wasn’t until in recent years that my desire to embrace this foreshadowed aspect of myself became apparent. How do we welcome & recognize strong women in the United States and around the world.

I have noticed and been a part of a culture that does not recognize women as multi-faceted goddesses that they are. Women often see other women as competition, threats, or judgmental. It is time to bring this sisterhood of women back together. Honor what makes us all captivating pieces of art, the blessings and challenges that makes us women, to share the stores of Her-story.

Men all over the world have a look, connection, a jargon – of course this has to do with looking at and staring at women. BUT why can we not have this too?

I know in the right circles this is not the common denominator. Women are recognized, women & men are equal and one, and the world is harmonious.

I am talking about mass culture though. 

How do we bring back the rent tent?

More Research. More thoughts. Actions.

Ruminations: These thoughts were the product of traveling through Central America, where Caribbean men feel it okay to howl and call women, in addition to feeling the desires of connection with another source that is not a MAN and I share my waxing and waning experiences of being a woman in the world.

Panamanian Overhaul - Beautiful Discrepancies

Costa Rica - Panama Border Crossing

Oh Boca's. Beauty. Majesty. Tranquility. Great Economic Discrepancy. Lack of Sustainable Waste Systems. Drunken Debauchery.

Panama not unlike the other countries I have visited recently (Mexico, Belize & Costa Rica...of course the United States is not left out of this) have missed the proverbial boat on what it will take our modern conscious to collectively evolve into the age of aquarius -- in more than just an energetic way -- you know in a real physical world way.

The observed discrepancies are a striking contrast of the enchanted existence which is Panama.

As I have been listening & watching these observations not only happen externally, but have been occurring internally as well (of course). The discrepancy and releasing of negative emotions, haunting memories, & imagined inadequacies. Aspiring to holistic healing is flowing externally and internally all around me, encompassing me. A releasing of that which is no longer serving, & a true curiousity of why I hold on to BULLSHIT in my MIND!

Why do we allow such destruction, demolition to OUR BEAUTIFUL SOURCE OF BEING in this world...

A marveled existence really.

I recently listened to a podcast on New Dimensions - Finding & Living the Truth by Sheila Keene-Lund #36. Ms. Keene-Lund speaks to exactly these dualities, discrepancies, and truths  -- what we see reflected in our common world is a reflection of our values.  We must take in to account the whole world in this conscious evolution - our physical, social, emotional - dark & light - and let our values of the changing consciousness shine it's light into the direction of our evolution. This is true from us as individuals ALL THE WAY TO countries. We are not isolated we are in this together. As each cell of our bodies works intrinsically with each other.

How can you move from self, to community, to society?

Ruminations: Those in our world with the power of knowledge & experience have a beacon before them of opportunity to make great change in the world that would make a difference to developing countries, the so-called developed countries, & the world. This blessing is available to work directly with people who are interested in bettering their own homes (countries) without the barricades of government and corporation in most cases. Remember any one that is interested in doing this: please take heed and direction from the indigenous as to what they want -- you may be an expert in your field BUT you are the foriegner. Listen first, think critically, then and only then act.

If they say you can't do it. DO iT ANYWAYS.

In Costa Rica. Puerto Viejo to be exact it is a little more than a few hours from the border of Panama. In total I have been in Costa Rica for more than 3 weeks. A majority of which I have spent with my Family in San Jose. A beautiful experience to be reconnected with the ones you love and that have been quite distant to you in Time & Space. BUT for those of us out there that believe in Quantum Theory, & the Unified Field Theory (which blows the first out of the water a bit) ...time & space is just and concept of the mind.

Family is a  fulfilling a magical illusive life yonder. Universe connections and glimpses into the future were made while in San Jose. Meeting up with enlightened beings in the depths of the city, attending a workshop on Success is Transformational Learning. Dying my hair MAGENTA (thanks to my super rad Prima Priscilla) and realizing why people were staring at me -- previous to this I felt that people were staring at me but could not conclude why. Now I know. Practicing my spanish, which I felt bravado for when I able to navigate a government agency, but not down more than a few notches when I tried to navigate the technology world with my new phone.

Speaking a second language and thinking in another can be a bit exhausting to say the least. Gratitude to my friends and family for patience and desire to understand what the fuck I was saying.

This story unfolds and I am headed upward and onward (in honestly south). It may be at hards time to know where and what I am doing for family, friends and myself. However...

Often times in our pursuit of what we enjoy, or what our heart desires people tell us it is not possible. Or that it is impossible. But really the truth is (said by someone or many at one point or another) that the person who says it is impossible should get out of the way of the person doing it.

This message has been delivered me in fact, in fun, and at times in fear. Through conversation, through lecture, through emotion. It is always clear. Follow your heart, trust the process even when your unclear of where it is your going.

So for now.. I am still enjoying ZAM, taking it easy on myself and headed to Panama, quite soon.

Revolution? Let's Talk Evolution.

Today celebrates women all over the world! Here in Costa Rica it is none the less, walking hand and hand with my 6 year old cousin- Fernanda (Of course an epic name) my time on a spiritual roundabout continues -and  my guide - which at the moment is "Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance (ZAMM)" always leads me well. It seems that when I need an answer it guides me through the process of analysis. Thanks Uni.

In Life & Time of ZAMM: The perplexing topic of the Chautauqua has been Quality in it's undefinable existence. Yes, this is perplexing - in life & in theory. What is quality? Do we know it when we see it? What defines it? The observer or the object? Does it exist without one or the other? How is quality measurable?

Is Quality "just" what you like? And is this an arbitrary way to make decisions?

What does this undefinable quality have to do with me? Well, making decisions can often be, well...difficult. It relates to this quality idea. Here I am in Costa Rica - unsure of which direction in paradise I will go. Funny how when opportunity presents itself - it can often be the guise of a zillion brilliant ideas. It is a simple decision really, where would I "like" to go. But as in the definition of what is quality - it is "just" what you like - the idea of doing something - anything because you like loses it's luster in the "just", as in romantic emotional desire is less spectacular in the rational picture of how the greater reality would be effected. Am I making the "right" decision by "just" doing what I want?

Well, I am going to do what I like. Cause gosh damn it that's all that there is. I am going to go hang out on the beach and pontificate for awhile, other opportunities will have to wait.  And as I think of my jump roping grandmother who LIKES my TATTOOS I am reminded that we live but once, that we remember, if it is an important opportunity it will reappear - the universe will make sure of that. And we must lead by example, so that is EVOLUTION of human-kind keeps on keeping on. We are all active agents in the raising of our evolution, one youngster at a time doing what they like - QUALITY.

P.S.- It good to have reminders but everyday is women's day & men's day - celebrate each other - love & honor each other, cause it feels good.

Estoy en Costa Rica!

I have gone further south and am now residing in San Jose Costa Rica con mi familia! It  has been roughly 7 years since I have seen them last, it is certainly a warm feeling to walk back into the lives of people that you see rarely and feel a warm connection. This however, is not without it challenges. Most all of my family speak none to little English, and though my Spanish is improving daily is cumbersome, exhausting, and at times frustrating. I certainly appreciate children and their ability to communicate with smiles and laugher. The only new family is one’s that were not born yet.  Watching my 84-ish year old grandmother jump roping was certainly a treat as well. BUT – I must say there is so many F&^*ing people in San Jose! Whoa! It is intoxicating in a less than pleasurable way.

Costa Rica thus far – staying centered, detached from outcomes and solely responsible for my own choices are great reminders.

Previous to the fambam I spent a week in Uvita, Punteranas at Envision festival. It was a treat to meet up with friends from home. It was a bit a strange to be speaking so much English. It was as though I was at a festival in California. Wonderful  universe connections, meeting up with Julia Butterfly in the Airport, asking for a ride and not knowing who she was, then spending a day with her and her friend Carlos….finding out later who she is – for the activist novice out there, she is the woman who sat in a ancient tree to stand up against clear cutting. Great words of wisdom from her! Listened and shared my own ideas with David Pinchbeck; was marveled by Unified field theory; made countless beautiful encounters and connections! Furthermore, soon.

Envision – on potential over stimulation – remember this is MY experience, whatever feels right for me, is right.

I also said good-bye to San Antonio, Belize where I spent people reflection time. Assisted with getting a library going, facebook promotion, taking care of the farm stead, building a path, playing in the preschool, helping with sewing, and canoeing & bird-watching with Rod of course!

San Antonio- when you go walking alone into unknown places, it’s good to remember the things your guide pointed out earlier otherwise you may walk into a poisonous itchy plant!